Arg. Grrr. Roar.

I've been thinking about a few things lately, namely: what I can do better as a priesthood holder to avoid any situation that could possibly break the heart of my future wife, or cost me the confidence of my future children, and anger, and about how it makes people feel and act. I'm gonna talk about anger a little. Anger can ruin relationships, and if entertained, can become a monster that is almost uncontrollable. Harmful, caustic words can be said, and things are sometimes done that are regretted. I, for one, do not like the way I feel when I am angry. Apologizing is not easy. I'm sorry. Those two words are the hardest ones to say with sincerity. Making other people feel bad, or angry, or like any less of a person kills me, and I hate it when I do. So, I made a promise to myself, and to the Lord, that from this point on I will not act on anger. If at some point frustration is clouding my judgement, I will leave the situation and come back to it later when my mind is clear. There ya go. Hold me to it, and I'll do my best.

Work that updoo!

So, I had my first modelling gig this past Monday for the BYU-I art department's advanced figure drawing class. It was interesting. Believe it or not, art modelling is hard work! Maintaining one position in perfect stillness for 20 minutes is more difficult than I imagined. Those 3 hours were rough, but it was fun. There are some older ladies in the class that cracked jokes, and made comments about my physique. haha, when I put on the first thing - a thick robe-like costume - for the first pose, the neckline of the king's gown was very low, so my chest was pretty bare. The oldest woman(probably around 50) called out, "mmmmmm! Bare chested men!" haha Then, during a later pose, I was wearing super short bunchy, knicker pant things that must have been daisy dukes of the mid-1300's. Some girl whistled at my bare man-legs. Basically, it was a blast. I was hesitant to take the job, but I really liked it, and I'll probably keep this for a while.